I am a New Year’s resolutions girl. I love to make resolutions and goals. I love to write everything out, hang them up and check in on my progress throughout the year. I force New Year’s resolutions on my family, my Wildflower had goals in the womb (1. Get a name… well done sweetheart). Goals are my jam, I love to check things off of a to-do list and resolutions are like the ultimate list. It is usually so exciting for me. This year is different.
To be honest, 2015 was a rough year for me and for our family. All the goals I had went out the window or changed. Unexpected trials and blessings have played a pivotal roll in our lives this past year. So over the last few weeks I have been tossing around the usual resolutions and it just didn’t feel right. This year I needed a change up. I have been longing for something more. I needed a New Year’s resolution that would do more than hydrate me.
Don’t get me wrong, I of course need to drink more water, lose all the pounds, work more, play more, be more present, you know, just spend 2016 becoming an all around better version of myself. No pressure. But the truth is, none of that will get me where I need to be. None of that will be a game changer. So I got quiet and I got still (quiet and still are not my strong suit) but I asked God to reveal to me what I’ve been missing, what I need. The answer was surprisingly and oviously simple. As my 5 year old says about the bully at Mother’s Day Out, I just need Jesus.
I am a little bit of a control freak so I like to be in charge and life has felt pretty out of my control this year. It has been unsettling and I’ve used tactics to get through the hard times and tried to go my own way. It has not worked. My quiet time has suffered, my time in the word has been brief and I am lacking direction or motivation. So this year I decided to make my New Year’s resolutions as simple as my solution and only make one.
My 2016 New Year’s resolution is to open my bible every day. Not on an app I can scan through or a quick devotion at the end of the night as I am falling asleep, or a verse of the day, but to open my bible every day, spend time in the word, time being quiet and still, time with the Lord. This is where the magic happens. This is where the Lord reveals His plans, His will for my life and I can get centered and focused on goals, on real resolutions on His true purpose for me. I’m betting the rest will fall into place or fall off the priority list.
This will be a challenge for me. I am a mother of littles, I am living in a state of exhaustion and
most some days survival. But I am wondering how much of this is me spinning my wheels, exerting my energy in the wrong direction. Every year our church starts out the year with a fast in January. The email about it this year’s fast included a verse that confirmed for me that I am on the right track.
“Seek first the kingdom and His righteousness” Matthew 6:33
If you are looking for more game changers, start with your words. Happy New Year friends!