Every year that we honor my son on his birthday, the grieving is different. I never know what to expect. Except the sadness, I always know the sadness will be there. I wanted to share his story with you this year, on his birthday. But I’ll be honest, I wasn’t ready. It was just too … Read more
You lose so much more than a baby when you experience loss. One of the many things you lose is what I call the naive pregnancy. You never have a pregnancy the same again. I knew with my second child we would be crazy, I expected that and we were. The Water Man and I … Read more
It’s getting to be late October and I have already started to have flashes of my November waves. Every fall, as the leaves change and weather cools, I start remembering. November is my son’s birthday. He would have been 6 this year. He would have a head full of yellow hair, like his little brother. … Read more
Today I was talking to a friend of mine who is pregnant for the first time. She was sharing her excitement with me, her plans, fears and doubts. I couldn’t help the sadness I felt listening to her, knowing those doubts will only increase. I wanted to save her from it, to give her the … Read more
I distinctly remember standing in the grocery store, I didn’t realize my hand had moved over my now flat stomach, my arms felt that familiar emptiness and tears were running down my face. Right in the middle of HEB I left a full grocery basket just sitting in the isle because I saw a pregnant … Read more